Suffer in Silence

I was reading back over this song
 Rehearsing it and got emotional
 It almost brought tears to my eyes
 You know when you got a song that's uncomfortable for you to hear
 That it's something that you should definitely let be heard
 So here we go
 I just had a breakdown today man snot bubbles and all
 Too many sad nights with nobody to call
 At least no one biased unexperienced or judging me
 I wouldn't take advice from most of you niggaz honestly
 I know I need therapy but can't afford it
 But still buying shit like mental health ain't important
 I show a lot of love but does anybody care
 Took a head count of those who do and saw you wasn't there
 Thought I had it figured out but see I'm failing miserably
 What really is my purpose
 That's my greatest mystery
 Searching for an answer from affirmations and ministry
 Don't know if God's hard of hearing
 Or just hardly here for me
 Failing in my marriage
 All my wife wants to do is be a parent
 But we can't afford another mouth to feed
 So we never plant a seed and I really can't I bare it
 Feel all of this
 But I never share it
 So I suffer in Silence
 Don't want to act out or resort to violence
 So I suffer in silence
 If I did tell you you would probably think I'm childish
 So I suffer in silence
 I know you're hurting too so it's probably best to hide it
 So I suffer in silence
 Do you suffer in silence
 I know
 Know that you want to tell somebody
 I know
 Know that you want to tell somebody
 I know
 Know that you want to tell somebody
 Let it go
 Let it go
 Let it go
 Let it go
 Let it go
 Let it go
 I had my first emotional breakdown recently
 It's different when you're sad because something really bad happened
 You immediately react
 But when you're letting things build and build
 And then you just breakdown
 That's how it felt for me
 I don't tell nobody cause I don't want you to judge
 Or cause I feel like no one really cares about us
 I don't tell you cause you won't look at me same
 I don't tell you cause I am the only one to blame
 I don't tell you cause it stirs up too much pain
 Or cause if I do I know that everything would change
 If I tell you I don't really think that it would help
 I don't tell you cause I barely even tell myself
 Could come up with a million reasons why I keep it bottled in
 Constantly comparing to the people that I'm following
 Thinking about tomorrow and none of it's looking promising
 Sick of living if it could my spirit would be vomiting
 Therapy within my community's abnormal
 Plus I don't want nobody thinking I'm not normal
 Clearly there's a lot that even hurts to think about
 Maybe it'd be better if I talk it out
 Instead of suffer in silence
 Don't want to act out or resort to violence
 So I suffer in silence
 If I did tell you you would probably think I'm childish
 So I suffer in silence
 I know you're hurting too so it's probably best to hide it
 So I suffer in silence
 Do you suffer in silence
 I know
 Know that you want to tell somebody
 I know
 Know that you want to tell somebody
 I know
 Know that you want to tell somebody
 Let it go
 Let it go
 Let it go
 Let it go
 Let it go
 Let it go
 I know it's super easy to just hold it all in
 Don't tell nobody
 And try to figure it out yourself
 But my uncle told me
 We're not meant to be islands on this earth
 And we're all connected
 And it's good to confide in somebody
 So tell somebody