Merry Christmas, I'm Cheating

Merry Christmas, I'm Cheating
 And I have been for some time
 I would say that I'm sorry
 But it's in my blood
 Merry Christmas, I'm cheating
 I can't get her out of my mind
 I would say I'm sorry
 But it's too much fun
 So when you sleep in our bed tonight
 Know that it is shared sometimes
 On the basis of moderation
 I divide my time
 Well, I've waited to tell you
 'Cause I can't handle your
 Screams and all that comes with that
 Tears and all the aftermath
 Merry Christmas, I'm cheating
 Well I guess I hid the signs
 Now you know something about me
 After all this time
 And I can't live without her
 And how she waits for my next line
 I'm just jealous of freedom
 That I left behind
 We were foolish together
 I would fix this but I can't
 There is something about her
 That you'll never have
 And I've waited to tell you
 'Cause I can't handle your
 Screams and all that comes with that
 Tears and all
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 Just a victim of consequence
 Well at least you're my second best
 I'm the victim here
 If you've noticed dear
 You don't appeal to all the needs I have
 Merry Christmas I'm cheating
 But it's only in my mind
 You know I'll always love you
 At convenient times