Water Wings

I drew a few steps on the first street
 Jumped to a store locals named Million Ways To Fuck It Up
 It Seems we all wish to sell ourselves to a million offers
 Dozen letters in my pocket
 From people I respect, and no way to write back
 Return to sender, Attention not found
 Confusing loneliness for freedom
 Solitude for a serum, and complaints for poetry, I fell, I failed
 I betrayed the kid I kept safe from all counterfeit hopes
 And all the snakes we swallow
 An aisle of silicon hands to shake and crush your throat
 Where do we go from here?
 Water wings sell like balloon shaped hopes
 Where do we go from here?
 A burden is a burden to the burdened
 They'd sell the limbless a course on how to sink with elegancy
 I took it back to the street, bought whatever they had
 Thought I should write down my dreams
 A notebook by the bed In case I'm lucky tonight
 Fantasized on how to beat regret
 I'll eventually crack it but you know me
 I'll just forget. And I almost find sleep
 Pressing my eyes, watching colors, Summer for cold feet
 Stains and tunnels, abstraction bores me, here no museums are free
 I don't want to be young
 I don't want to be old enough to remember
 All the things I projected but never touched in fear of ruining dreams
 I don't possess
 And these are dreams that I'll never forgive
 Water wings of lead, they are dreams that I'll never forgive