Hate Me

If you're sleeping, are you dreaming?
 If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
 I can't believe you actually picked me
 Hi Justin, this is your mother, and it's 2:33 on Monday afternoon
 I was just calling to see how you were doing
 You sounded really uptight last night
 It made me a little nervous, and a lit-
 And well, it made me nervous, but it sounded like you were nervous, too
 I just wanted to make sure you were really okay
 And wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication
 You know I love you, and
 Take care, honey, I know you're under a lot of pressure
 See ya, bye bye
 I have to block out thoughts of you
 So I don't lose my head
 They crawl in like a cockroach
 Leaving babies in my bed
 Dropping little reels of tape
 To remind me that I'm alone
 Playing movies in my head
 That make a porno feel like home
 There's a burning in my pride
 A nervous bleeding in my brain
 An ounce of peace is all I want for you
 Will you never call again?
 And will you never say that you loved me?
 Just to put it in my face
 And will you never try to reach me?
 It is I that wanted space
 Hate me today
 Hate me tomorrow
 Hate me for all the things
 I didn't do for you
 Hate me in ways
 Yeah, ways hard to swallow
 Hate me so you can finally
 See what's good for you
 I'm sober now for three whole months
 It's one accomplishment that you helped me with
 The one thing that always tore us apart
 Is the one thing I won't touch again
 In my sick way I wanna thank you
 For holding my head up late at night
 While I was busy waging wars on myself
 You were trying to stop the fight
 You never doubted my warped opinions
 On things like suicidal hate
 You made me compliment myself
 When it was way too hard to take
 So I'll drive so fucking far away
 That I never cross your mind
 And do whatever it takes in your heart
 To leave me behind
 Hate me today
 Hate me tomorrow
 Hate me for all the things
 I didn't do for you
 Hate me in ways
 Yeah, ways hard to swallow
 Hate me so you can finally
 See what's good for you
 And with a sad heart, I say bye to you and wave
 Kicking shadows on the street
 For every mistake that I had made
 And like a baby boy I never was a man
 Until I saw your blue eyes cry
 And I held your face in my hand
 And then I fell down yelling, "Make it go away"
 Just make a smile, come back and shine
 Just like it used to be
 And then she whispered, "How can you do this to me?"
 Hate me today
 Hate me tomorrow
 Hate me for all the things
 I didn't do for you
 Hate me in ways
 Yeah, ways hard to swallow
 Hate me so you can finally
 See what's good for you
 For you
 For you
 For you
 If you're sleeping, are you dreaming?
 If you're dreaming, are you dreaming of me?
 I can't believe you actually picked me
 Hey Justin!
 Hey Justin!
 Hey Justin!
 Hey Justin!
 Hey Justin!
 Hey Justin!
 Hey Justin!
 Hey Justin!
 Hey Justin!
 Hey Justin!
 Hey Justin!