drug mule

You gave up-
 You gave up on me like I give up on myself
 It's chess not checkers
 Try not to forget that next time
 Feelings that I can't fake
 Wipe all memories right away
 You know it's hard for me to concentrate
 I think I'm losing' it all
 I need someone to talk to
 I've been in a bad mood
 I'm hooked on her just like some dog food
 Had to cut you off, send you to charm school
 I turn a Uber to a drug mule (Drug mule)
 I felt stupid, thought I could trust you (Trust you)
 Now it doesn't feel the same when I touch you (Touch you)
 Wanna play dumb but I know how to play numb too (Numb too)
 Wish I could leave you alone
 Put my heart on cryo
 I just came out the asylum
 I see beauty in the silence
 I see tragedy in triumph
 I'm not talking, I'm not trying
 Man I love it when you lying
 I'm not stalking, I'm not spying
 I'm too driven, I'm too giant
 I feel like a wrestler
 I would for us but I know that I'm better off
 Next cocktail I'm gon' drink gon' be a Molotov
 I'm half man, half beast like a Minotaur
 All this weight on top my chest feel like a cinder block
 And I prayed to her like synagogue
 Fell in way too deep, took it too far
 Felt like I'm scuba diving
 What if we had never met?
 Ha, it's funny there is some food for thought
 Used to be my twin, you turned your back
 Just like you're Sephiroth
 Wish I'd listened to my instincts, 'cause I know they never wrong
 Feelings been stuck in the basement locked in
 I think that the drugs tryna take me hostage
 Looking like a ghost, can't escape my haunting
 Got to give it up but I don't know how to stop it
 Wake up, get a little head like ohh
 Break up but you're on my bed by tomorrow
 Snake tongue but it's still too bitter to swallow
 My face numb, gotta fill a tank, full throttle
 Time been fully isolated
 I don't mind what you say or how you rate it
 Probably gonna rob my cadence
 I don't want to be famous
 You can come and say "hi" at my funeral
 I'm finally confined to my cubical
 I'm really not fine as usual
 Now thank you for your time it wasn't beautiful
 I need someone to talk to
 'Cause I've been in a bad mood
 Hooked on her love just like some dog food
 Cut her off, send her to charm school
 I turn a Uber to a drug mule (Drug mule)
 Felt so stupid, thought I could trust you (Trust you)
 And now it doesn't feel the same when I fuck you (Fuck you)
 Wanna play dumb but I know how to play numb too (Numb too)
 I guess I'm back up on my own, aye