Padraic My Prince

I had a brother once
 He drowned in a bathtub
 Before he'd ever learned how to talk
 And I don't know what his name was
 But my mother does
 I heard her say it once
 Padraic my prince, I have all but died
 From the sheer weight of my shame
 You cried but no one came
 And the water filled your tiny lungs
 Appear, my dear, and cry for me
 Six years ago today
 That I laid you in your grave
 Your sweet young skin was shining then too
 So tonight to celebrate I will
 I will poison myself
 Another coughing, shaking fit in a bathroom
 That is spinning
 And I close the door
 And I rest my head on the tile floor
 Sickness and sleep turning me cold
 I'm still not sure
 Is there some better place I could be heading towards?
 Where the selfishly sick and self-absorbed
 Are welcome
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 I saw the future once
 I was drunk in a phone booth
 My eyes were wet and red
 But I could not tell what was said
 And through the screams of the traffic
 Voices carried
 Saying I'm sorry
 On a day so gray it's black inside
 Watching churches on TV
 In a coma you don't dream
 You just hope that someone sits with you
 Babies turn blue when they're ignored
 Like the sky on summer days
 Before you turn and walk away
 It has changed you
 So tonight to compensate I will
 I will poison myself
 Another coughing, shaking fit in a bathroom
 That is spinning