TONYA

And mother, I am sorry, I never pick up, mm-hmm
 Because I'm afraid to disappoint ooh, ooh-ah, ooh, no
 Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
 Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
 We were sat outside on the Harvard floor
 With our feet in dirt, and our hearts in awe
 I be losin' sleep thinkin' 'bout missed calls
 And I see the names circling our thoughts
 And I think about if we lose it all
 And I turn to shit that you'd never want
 Like the smoke, the drink, anything at all
 And I'll say again, "Sorry I don't call"
 There's no money on my mind
 But my money or my mind
 What's the first to fall?
 I never wanted this shit, yeah
 Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
 Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
 Sometimes, it be so spot on it hurts
 Like when Auntie couldn't decide between going to work or church
 I've been in my feelings on an island in the dirt
 I feel like brothers lie just so my feelings don't get hurt
 I said, "I'll try vacation, I'll try to run away"
 I deleted Facebook, I'll trade fame any day
 For a quiet Texas place and a barbecue plate
 I'll switch my place if that's good for you, is that good for you?
 My ghost still haunt ya, my life is I, Tonya
 A big-eyed monster, only face to conquer
 I hated songs about fame 'cause that stuff meant nothin'
 Until them headlines came, then first flight I'm stuck in
 And maybe it means nothing
 But I have to say I think about you often
 And if you want no part with me
 I'll walk away, I know that I have wronged you
 And maybe it means nothing
 But I have to say I think about you often
 And if you want no part with me
 I'll walk away, I know that I have wronged you
 I took a plane to somewhere that I've never been
 Too many times without my sister and my brother
 Dad or mother by my side but they're in spirit
 I always hear it, I know they feel it
 My momma always had these dreams that used to keep her up at night
 I smoke to keep them all away and make use of the time
 I'm void of feelin'
 The reasons I'm so out of touch now start revealin'
 But I'm not ashamed, I'm not afraid of who I am
 Or how I trust my mental, yeah, it's not perfect
 But I guess that's just the shit I'm into
 I fantasize about a time when everything was simple
 My shelter sheltered me from things I needed to commit to
 The way it stands to me
 A victim of Stockholm in my friendships and family
 What's costin' your time? What's the reason that you whine?
 What's in your wallet? Dead whites in mine
 So sour, in this light of lime
 Daddy said "Study or get that cash"
 Mommy said "Your career ain't gon' last"
 Loose change, call a cab, move out their pad
 I just need a chance to move past my past
 Don't think too fast, private jets still crash
 And I'll still fly coach, and I'll still hit a roach
 And I'll still see roaches at the crib where my folks at
 Touch your dreams 'fore you touch me and provoke a man
 (Somebody's gonna have to tell the truth and I'm gonna tell it!)
 I will
 I will
 (I don't matter)
 I will
 (Ahh)
 Can I tell you how?
 Can I tell you now?
 I will
 
 And mother, I am sorry, I never pick up, mm-hmm
 Because I'm afraid to disappoint ooh, ooh-ah, ooh, no
 Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
 Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
 We were sat outside on the Harvard floor
 With our feet in dirt, and our hearts in awe
 I be losin' sleep thinkin' 'bout missed calls
 And I see the names circling our thoughts
 And I think about if we lose it all
 And I turn to shit that you'd never want
 Like the smoke, the drink, anything at all
 And I'll say again, "Sorry I don't call"
 There's no money on my mind
 But my money or my mind
 What's the first to fall?
 I never wanted this shit, yeah
 Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
 Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
 Sometimes, it be so spot on it hurts
 Like when Auntie couldn't decide between going to work or church
 I've been in my feelings on an island in the dirt
 I feel like brothers lie just so my feelings don't get hurt
 I said, "I'll try vacation, I'll try to run away"
 I deleted Facebook, I'll trade fame any day
 For a quiet Texas place and a barbecue plate
 I'll switch my place if that's good for you, is that good for you?
 My ghost still haunt ya, my life is I, Tonya
 A big-eyed monster, only face to conquer
 I hated songs about fame 'cause that stuff meant nothin'
 Until them headlines came, then first flight I'm stuck in
 And maybe it means nothing
 But I have to say I think about you often
 And if you want no part with me
 I'll walk away, I know that I have wronged you
 And maybe it means nothing
 But I have to say I think about you often
 And if you want no part with me
 I'll walk away, I know that I have wronged you
 I took a plane to somewhere that I've never been
 Too many times without my sister and my brother
 Dad or mother by my side but they're in spirit
 I always hear it, I know they feel it
 My momma always had these dreams that used to keep her up at night
 I smoke to keep them all away and make use of the time
 I'm void of feelin'
 The reasons I'm so out of touch now start revealin'
 But I'm not ashamed, I'm not afraid of who I am
 Or how I trust my mental, yeah, it's not perfect
 But I guess that's just the shit I'm into
 I fantasize about a time when everything was simple
 My shelter sheltered me from things I needed to commit to
 The way it stands to me
 A victim of Stockholm in my friendships and family
 What's costin' your time? What's the reason that you whine?
 What's in your wallet? Dead whites in mine
 So sour, in this light of lime
 Daddy said "Study or get that cash"
 Mommy said "Your career ain't gon' last"
 Loose change, call a cab, move out their pad
 I just need a chance to move past my past
 Don't think too fast, private jets still crash
 And I'll still fly coach, and I'll still hit a roach
 And I'll still see roaches at the crib where my folks at
 Touch your dreams 'fore you touch me and provoke a man
 (Somebody's gonna have to tell the truth and I'm gonna tell it!)
 I will
 I will
 (I don't matter)
 I will
 (Ahh)
 Can I tell you how?
 Can I tell you now?
 I will
 
 And mother, I am sorry, I never pick up, mm-hmm
 Because I'm afraid to disappoint ooh, ooh-ah, ooh, no
 Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
 Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
 We were sat outside on the Harvard floor
 With our feet in dirt, and our hearts in awe
 I be losin' sleep thinkin' 'bout missed calls
 And I see the names circling our thoughts
 And I think about if we lose it all
 And I turn to shit that you'd never want
 Like the smoke, the drink, anything at all
 And I'll say again, "Sorry I don't call"
 There's no money on my mind
 But my money or my mind
 What's the first to fall?
 I never wanted this shit, yeah
 Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
 Hey, and I've been feelin' like I don't matter how I used to
 Sometimes, it be so spot on it hurts
 Like when Auntie couldn't decide between going to work or church
 I've been in my feelings on an island in the dirt
 I feel like brothers lie just so my feelings don't get hurt
 I said, "I'll try vacation, I'll try to run away"
 I deleted Facebook, I'll trade fame any day
 For a quiet Texas place and a barbecue plate
 I'll switch my place if that's good for you, is that good for you?
 My ghost still haunt ya, my life is I, Tonya
 A big-eyed monster, only face to conquer
 I hated songs about fame 'cause that stuff meant nothin'
 Until them headlines came, then first flight I'm stuck in
 And maybe it means nothing
 But I have to say I think about you often
 And if you want no part with me
 I'll walk away, I know that I have wronged you
 And maybe it means nothing
 But I have to say I think about you often
 And if you want no part with me
 I'll walk away, I know that I have wronged you
 I took a plane to somewhere that I've never been
 Too many times without my sister and my brother
 Dad or mother by my side but they're in spirit
 I always hear it, I know they feel it
 My momma always had these dreams that used to keep her up at night
 I smoke to keep them all away and make use of the time
 I'm void of feelin'
 The reasons I'm so out of touch now start revealin'
 But I'm not ashamed, I'm not afraid of who I am
 Or how I trust my mental, yeah, it's not perfect
 But I guess that's just the shit I'm into
 I fantasize about a time when everything was simple
 My shelter sheltered me from things I needed to commit to
 The way it stands to me
 A victim of Stockholm in my friendships and family
 What's costin' your time? What's the reason that you whine?
 What's in your wallet? Dead whites in mine
 So sour, in this light of lime
 Daddy said "Study or get that cash"
 Mommy said "Your career ain't gon' last"
 Loose change, call a cab, move out their pad
 I just need a chance to move past my past
 Don't think too fast, private jets still crash
 And I'll still fly coach, and I'll still hit a roach
 And I'll still see roaches at the crib where my folks at
 Touch your dreams 'fore you touch me and provoke a man
 (Somebody's gonna have to tell the truth and I'm gonna tell it!)
 I will
 I will
 (I don't matter)
 I will
 (Ahh)
 Can I tell you how?
 Can I tell you now?
 I will