me vs me vs all y'all

Wake yourself up
 I'd listen back for hours
 Disintegration by The Cure
 Lullaby, Homesick, Lovesong
 Soundtrack to my time on tour
 Quit my job, took a flight
 Call my girl, start a fight
 Did my best, Eddie Vedder
 Then I buckle under pressure
 Members come and members go
 Town to town is all I know
 Austin, Houston, El Paso
 Adderall and espresso
 How do you sleep at night?
 Try as hard as I might
 Did my best, Evan Dando
 Where the fuck did the time go?
 Throw your life away
 Pick it up on another day
 And I can't, I can't hear you
 Throw your life away
 Pick it up on another day
 And I can't, I can't hear you
 'Cause I can't hear you
 Wake yourself up
 It's not what I intended
 No holidays or wedding vows
 Cousins turned to teenagers
 Send me back if you know how
 Skim through all that they write
 You didn't have it tonight
 Please them all, you could never
 Bet it sticks with you forever!
 Throw your life away
 Pick it up on another day
 And I can't, I can't hear you
 Throw your life away
 Pick it up on another day
 And I can't, I can't hear you
 'Cause I can't hear you
 It's not so glamorous
 See your life through a camera lens
 Add it up, anyone impressed?
 Add it up 'til I'm laid to rest
 It's not so glamorous
 Looking back on a life I missed
 Add it up, all the years of stress
 Always told I was second best
 I had to learn
 I had to learn
 (I had to learn)
 (I had to learn)
 I had to learn
 And I had to
 And after all these years, my blessing was actually a curse
 And what is success other than a comparison?
 Me vs me vs all of y'all