On Your Shore

I dig my heels into the dirt
 'Cause this one's gonna hurt
 Won't let the waves wash me away
 Is what I always pray
 In my heart I know you couldn't see
 In the dark or find your way through me
 Now I'm alone, my hands are numb
 How do I carry on?
 At the turn of the tide
 I feel this part of me die
 Am I washed on your shore and barely alive?
 Now I'm held hostage in my head
 With every word you said
 God, all those lessons in my past
 I spit them out so fast
 I see myself with you, I act so small
 I see myself with you, I always crawl
 So someone leave a raft for me
 The water's getting deep
 At the turn of the tide
 I feel this part of me die
 Am I washed on your shore and barely alive?
 Here I am in my insecurity
 Here I am in my damaged dignity
 Here I am, you're pulling me in too deep
 Here I am
 Here I am, I'm in the mercy seat
 Here I am, running without my feet
 Here I am, oh what's come over me?
 Here I am
 When I was melting in your hand
 You didn't understand
 You slip through me like grains of sand
 You still don't understand
 Overboard, I'm thrown out to see
 What you are and what I mean to me
 But I will always have my dream where you can swim to me
 At the turn of the tide
 I feel this part of me die
 I've been on your shore before
 And it was no waste of time
 Over my head and in my mind
 Am I washed on your shore and barely alive?