The War That Followed Me Home

I break down
 My mind awakes in the wake of hysteria
 It's happening again
 I see your face in the place where I rest my head
 I only sleep with my eyes wide open
 I blame myself, I shame myself
 Death from the front lines showing up on my front doorstep
 You'll never know the guilt I felt from surviving
 Or know the love and loss that's always on repeat
 I'm just a living casualty
 I thought I left the fight behind back overseas
 And maybe I'm denied a full recovery
 I've gone M.I.A
 I'll never find me
 I can't escape the flashbacks
 We attacked, they shot back
 The skies turned black
 I watched my friend take his last breath
 I set aside my humanity
 How can I feel when I've been trained for apathy?
 I put my life on the line, at what cost?
 My first kill became the death of me
 Death of me
 Forget everything you've known and come to believe
 Stripped down and torn apart
 Replace the heart, you are a machine
 Somewhere I know there's a soul trapped in between
 Death from the front lines showing up on my front doorstep
 You'll never know the guilt I felt from surviving
 Or know the love and loss that's always on repeat
 I'm just a living casualty
 I thought I left the fight behind back overseas
 And maybe I'm denied a full recovery
 I've gone M.I.A
 I'll never find me
 Where do I go from here
 When the smoke clears and the bodies appear?
 No time for fear as death rains from the air
 My knees collapse, and I brace for the impact
 The bloodshed that never ends
 The echo that runs through my head
 It's a war that followed me home
 It's a war that followed me home
 It's a war that followed me home
 You'll never know the guilt I felt from surviving
 Or know the love and loss that's always on repeat
 I'm just a living casualty
 I thought I left the fight behind back overseas
 And maybe I'm denied a full recovery
 I've gone M.I.A
 I'll never find me