Tell Me I'm Not Drinking

Couldn't believe it when
 I woke up here again
 Without a single friend in the world
 Twisted up inside
 I cheated and I lied
 Seemed the best way to get by in your world
 Tell me I'm not drinking
 Cause everything's unclear
 I'll wake in the morning to find you here
 Last night I had it all
 I didn't care you didn't call
 There was nothing I could do about you
 Feels like a gun inside my head
 Sending bullets through my heart
 It hurts to take a single breath without you
 Now I wish I could have stayed in the paradise you
 tried to make but that world - oh it's for someone else
 You can't see me now, I'm just a tired ghost in a
 smoke-filled crowd - I'd rather look at you from
 outside myself
 So I stumble through each day
 But I'm free to choose my way
 And there's this peaceful emptiness all around me