Fear2fail

Broke and hungry
 Always running on empty
 Tired but can't sleep
 My lifestyle is poverty
 If I don't eat I might throw up
 Don't have enough to get what I need
 Just enough to get fucked up
 But not enough to eat
 Scrounging for anything
 Starving to escape this suffering
 Aspiration is not what it seems
 There's no future waiting for me
 Can't cash in on my dreams
 Passion doesn't fill pockets
 Nothing is what it seems
 There's no secret scheme
 Calling me to unlock it
 The root of all evil is dying on me
 I'm rotten from my misery
 It'd be easier if I were six feet deep
 But buying a casket isn't fucking cheap
 I'm so sick of it all
 I'm so sick of it all
 I'm so sick of it all
 I'm so sick of it all
 I can't say I'm dead
 But I know I'm not alive
 I'd rather starve my whole life, chasing a lie
 Than forfeit my life, strangled by a suit and tie
 I don't want to give in
 What's left would be ruined
 Going back to giving up hope
 Would leave me no choice but to
 Choke at the end of a rope
 I gotta get a break
 No matter what it takes
 It'd be such a fuckin waste
 To throw it all away
 Been burned so many times it doesn't faze me
 Blurred so many lines I've gone crazy
 Trapped, alone with myself
 Exhausted from these ruminating thoughts
 Shoving these feelings down to the bottom of a bottle
 Then drinking it down
 I can't say I'm dead
 But I know I'm not alive
 I'd rather starve my whole life, chasing a lie
 Than forfeit my life, strangled by a suit and tie
 I don't want to give in
 What's left would be ruined
 Going back to giving up hope
 Would leave me no choice but to
 Choke at the end of a rope
 Submerge myself below the depths that I know
 Until I can't remember
 Where I came from
 I'll follow my sorrow
 Into tomorrow
 Until the day this will all make up for it