Psycho

Tuesday, 23rd of January, 2018
 I'm here with David
 This is our first session
 We're just gonna talk about your background
 Where you're from, any issues you've been dealing with
 So, where should we start?
 Look
 Stop all the pain
 How do you stop all the pain, huh?
 I used to hear a voice when I was praying
 But nowadays, I don't even wanna be saved
 Nah, fuck that, I don't wanna be saved
 I was born to be wild and I don't wanna be tamed
 Talent's in my blood and I don't wanna be vain
 But if I'm a psycho, then I don't wanna be sane
 I used to dream of this shit when I was hopping on train
 So, so bad, I used to want all the fame
 My ex-girl want to shoot a cover for Vogue
 Which is pretty ironic 'cause she's top of the range
 If any one of you take a shot on a track
 My niggas come back and put a shot in your frame
 Easy as the alphabet
 Three G's in the ring, call me Alvarez
 My teacher used to say I need counseling
 Couldn't stop asking me, "What do you feel?"
 There's so many old scars that they wanna reveal
 We got off on the wrong foot 'cause I don't want him to heal, nah
 But if you're looking for a psycho, you got one
 I thought I had a screw loose but I lost one
 99 problems, money, it is not one
 My currency's Kenyan, that's in it for the long run, huh
 Tears on a pillow
 Bro, I shed so many tears on a pillow
 I used to tell my teachers that nobody gets it
 I don't know Clarke but I know that I'm a Kidult
 'Cause my mummy ain't been home, miss thinks I'm involved
 Blame my environment, it made me a sicko
 Furthermore, I should bring that bitch down to Streatham
 And then make her spend a day in a veil like a widow
 Kiddo, we seen swords longer than a limo
 My bros are blacksmiths like Jaden and Willow
 Man, there's weapons over here, we're reppin' over here
 We're from the Southside but it's Streatham over here
 No telling if you're selling, hold the wettin' here
 Get him over here, who the fuck is checkin' over here?
 Most my niggas are the ones applying pressure over here
 Fuck assault, I can get a nigga peppered over here, whoa
 We wanted more, then some food on the strip or moving a brick
 My niggas went to school with the rich and we were broke
 Hiding crow in a Rubicon drink, which is funny
 'Cause that's how we put food in the fridge
 So, who am I?
 Someone tryna live his best life
 I just wanna take a pretty woman for a test drive
 If I bring her to my room and I press, I
 Guarantee she gonna see the force like a ex-wife
 People tell me I'm a little bit barmy
 For my army, I need a bottle of Bacardi
 If it's me and a pouch with my dargy
 Shawty, you're seeing two stars in the party
 Fuck what you heard
 I'm a pop boy and I ain't giving man a turn
 I don't wanna know and pretty woman wanna flirt
 Learned you can judge a nigga by the women that he curves
 I love this game, I ain't lost focus
 I'm a hitmaker, if you ever noticed
 I could be the rapper with the message like you're hoping
 But what's the point in me being the best if no one knows it?
 Brother I'm a careful, humble, reckless, arrogant, extravagant
 Nigga probably battlin' with manic depression
 Man, I think I'm going mad again
 It's like I'm happy for a second then I'm sad again
 And to my fans, the reason I could get to this
 You're my drug, the instrumental my therapist
 Man, I need some therapy
 My girl saying that she'll never leave
 I'm scared she gonna find a better me
 Deeper insecurities, like
 What if I don't leave a legacy?
 Money, why they check for me?
 Mummy lost respect for me
 I wish that we could be together but that ain't how life works
 I used to cry about my dad until my fucking eyes burnt
 Nose running, you don't know nothing
 Before I put a penny on the table, I provided for my family
 Held my mother's hand through the agony, hey
 You ever fall 'sleep 'cause you don't wanna be awake?
 In a way, you're tired of the reality you face?
 If you're thinking 'bout doing it
 Suicide doesn't stop the pain, you're only moving it
 Lives that you're ruining
 Thoughts of a world without you in it, hiding
 I ain't psycho but my life is