Midline

I need help i can't leave i can't breathe. i see my way out but
 I'm in too deep to care. emotionless, i feel myself about to break.
 Self-destruction, self corruption, this life i know, this life i hate.
 With each passing day my outlets slip away. i believe the lies and
 I dig myself in deeper. i play a daily game of tug a war between
 What's in my heart and what's on my mind, not weighing circumstances,
 Passing blindly by my chances knowing some day i might die. in the
 Silence of my nightmare noone else can hear me scream, noone else knows
 What i need, noone else believes, i could die and not care. i need
 Something to set me free. reflections from my past that seem so unreal
 To me, I'm out of touch i can no longer feel me, my heart is sick and
 My mind is reeling. don't know myself, don't know why i still don't care
 . I'm the only one that's paying, and I'm the only one that's playing.
 The more i struggle the more i lose. i dig myself in deeper and still
 Don't care then the moment comes when you reach for my heart, i know
 It's to hard to find