Homesick Sonnets

Sonnet I
 In times of warmth
 When love and comfort dear
 Have cast their blindless light upon my star
 How is it
 That I wish to disappear
 And find myself again
 Back where you are?
 Is it that home is only home with you?
 And how then did you earn your house that name
 When judged by years it's relatively new?
 My home is not my home here just the same
 And so I will be happy as I must
 Although without you
 Sugar tastes as dust
 Sonnet II
 What sweetened torture I endure each day
 When hour after hour passes by
 And still I feel so very far away
 From that which I desire
 Yes, thee and I
 Yet rosy is my sadness
 For ere now
 I never had pined after someone's touch
 Nor eyes
 Nor lips
 Nor hands
 Nor raven brow
 And here I am
 Missing almost too much
 My paradox is that I weep at this
 While being glad I have a love to miss
 Sonnet III
 Heartsick have I been
 This long, long day
 Heavy is my disposition
 Yet, I smile
 And try my best to hide away
 The pain
 The life
 The love I can't forget
 Sorry am I
 For the ones I fool
 They ask for nothing save my company
 And yet I cannot seem to break the rule
 That sayeth once I love
 Twice bound I'll be
 Alas, I often slip
 And to them show
 That far away
 My heart desires to go
 Sonnet IV
 It seems only a moment past
 I listened to the dulcet tone
 Of thy too far off voice at last
 But now I find myself alone
 Yet, my eyes closed
 I am not so
 For underneath my fingertips
 I feel your flesh
 Caressing slow
 And hold thy tongue between my lips
 Past caring how forlorn it seems
 I'll sleep to meet you in my dreams
 Sonnet V
 A cold wind ravages my mind
 As though I were
 A blade of grass
 Which, rained upon
 Has been made blind
 And waits now for the storm to pass
 But, strange
 The closer cometh I
 To travel's end and your embrace
 The darker seems to go the sky
 The further off seemeth your face
 'Tis trying
 When in pain, to rhyme
 'Tis harder still to measure time