First I'm Sorry

You had me first
 And traced my lips I'm sorry
 You held me from the dirt
 You had me first I'm sorry
 You are not my shelf
 To hold up my old self I'm sorry
 You need something else
 I am not myself I'm sorry
 Mother knows I drown in my lies
 Father knows I learned my lessons the second time
 Ask me where I'll go I'll say I do not know
 No, I do not know
 No, I do not know
 But you drowned in my waves
 And I can tell that you are hurt
 Please know I loved you first
 Please know I loved you
 But you are not my shelf
 To hold up my old self I'm sorry
 You need something else
 I am not my self I'm sorry
 (Oooh)
 Mother knows I drown in my lies
 Father knows I learned my lessons the second time
 Ask me where I'll go I'll say I do not know
 No, I do not know
 No, I do not know