Defeated by Life

Defeated by life, that's what I am
 It's something more than just being the loser,
 It's looking more at your target, at life
 Through a bulletproof glass
 Your efforts to break it are all vain
 And forever will be.
 Hitting you enemy so hard, until your fist bleed
 But nothing will change
 As soon as you entered the competition,
 You already knew that everything is worthless
 All your strength and efforts thrown away
 While a bitter laugh is echoing in your head.
 And there is nothing you could do to stop it
 And this is the supposed great circle of life?
 I think not!
 Motionless, hopeless
 Apathy is your god now
 Sometimes you love and praise it
 Sometimes you're afraid of it
 But when daylight is reaching you tired body
 Again
 Ghosts disappear, just for a second
 You're feeling competitive and full of strength
 While you blind eyes are ready to observe another defeat
 Once again.