I'm Messed Up

Crazy bout the girl outside my window
 When she passes by and waves real mellow
 I can tell she loves her life
 While I'm cleaning up the mess in mine
 But even if I quit my 9-5 though
 And broke out of my lease to ride it solo
 I'd still be a woman in distress
 Just looping an infinite mess
 Cause I mess up the time
 Mess up on the rent
 Messing up the moments
 Where life's got me spent
 I just wanna go home
 Crawl straight into bed
 And catch up on the sleep
 That I never get
 Apologies, don't offer them
 Or bother me, no, not for anything
 Just load the bowl
 And fill my cup
 Accept the fact I'm messed up
 La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
 I'm messed up
 La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
 I'm messed up
 La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
 I'm messed up
 La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
 I'm messed up
 It's hard to live a life above the pressure
 When fighting through the pain I feel the pleasure
 Thinking that I found my voice
 When there's nothing that can fill this void
 So even if I scream above the static
 Chasing sanity - I'm still an addict
 Can you love me as I am?
 I'm messed up but the best that I can
 Cause I mess up the time
 Mess up on the rent
 Messing up the moments
 Where life's got me spent
 I just wanna go home
 Crawl straight into bed
 And catch up on the sleep
 That I never get
 Apologies, don't offer them
 Or bother me, no, not for anything
 Just load the bowl
 And fill my cup
 Accept it now — I'm messed up
 La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
 I'm messed up
 La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
 I'm messed up
 La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
 I'm messed up
 La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
 I'm messed up
 I'll never be your trophy girl
 Living in a barbie world
 And you'll never be my man
 Thanks for doing the best that you can
 I'll never be by your side
 I'm just in it for the ride
 Doing the best that I can
 I'm messed up but that's who I am
 La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
 I'm messed up
 La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
 I'm messed up
 La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
 I'm messed up
 La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
 I'm messed up