Normal

It's taken two different therapists
 To tell me what to do to help me wrestle with
 The bar I set for love and what I do with it
 I want it so bad, but I'm bad at it
 Used to love a Friday out in Malibu
 And now I never go because I think of you
 Never meant to ruin it but you always do
 I can't get away, get away from you
 Oh, and somewhere
 There's a balance in self-care
 And wanting someone to be there
 Is it normal to be scared?
 'Cause I should hate you
 Probably do, but I don't want to
 All I do is forgive you
 Is it normal that I do?
 Everyone I love is worried
 All you ever done is hurt me
 And it hurts me to love you
 Is it normal that I do?
 Gotten so good at recovery
 Reading all the books and doing everything
 Even give advice like I know anything
 But I'm so afraid to heal that it's breaking me
 Oh, and somewhere
 There's a balance in self-care
 And wanting someone to be there
 Is it normal to be scared?
 'Cause I should hate you
 Probably do, but I don't want to
 All I do is forgive you
 Is it normal that I do?
 Everyone I love is worried
 All you ever done is hurt me
 And it hurts me to love you
 Is it normal that I do?
 (Nah-nah-nah, normal)
 (Tell me I'm normal)
 (I know I'm normal)
 (Just tell me I'm normal)
 Is it normal to lie to all my friends every night?
 Is it normal to try to tell myself I'm alright?
 It is normal to say that I still want you to wait?
 And is it normal to stay in case you come back someday?
 'Cause I should hate you
 Probably do, but I don't want to
 All I do is forgive you
 Is it normal that I do?
 Everyone I love is worried
 All you ever done is hurt me
 And it hurts me to love you
 Is it normal that I do?
 (Nah-nah-nah, normal)
 (Tell me I'm normal)
 (I know I'm normal)
 (Just tell me I'm normal)
 (Nah-nah-nah, normal)
 (Tell me I'm normal)
 (I know I'm normal)
 (Just tell me I'm normal)