Cantaloupe's and Natural Calm

Sitting in this comfort inn, man workings got me fucked up
 Slow down
 Swear to god I'm 'bout to lose my mind and hit the
 Road now
 Work and go to sleep, wake up, repeat, that's how it
 Goes now
 8 p.m. or something, I don't know
 This town's a joke
 Got some cantaloupes and natural calm, I think I'll be alright
 I'll write a section for my blessings
 What I got and what I don't
 Should probably lay down close my eyes around 11, probably won't
 'Cause I stress too much
 Like I'm obsessed with it
 I swear anxiety's my bitch
 And I'ma undress it
 Or maybe address it
 Fuck it I talk about too much
 Summer went by way too quick
 2 days turned into 2 months
 It's hot as fuck in September
 Pounding in my left temple
 'Cause this bed sucks
 I would probably give my left nut
 To be stress free, on an island in the sea
 On a jet ski, with a breeze flowing through my teeth
 On a beach, sipping tea under the trees
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 Sometimes I think about what if
 And I forget about what isn't
 I swear it's like I'm locked inside my mind, in a prison
 I'ma shine I don't give a shit
 I'll just learn to deal with it
 This room is cold and dark, and man I really just ain't feeling it
 But Call of Duty helps me pass the time until I get back
 If you tryna 1v1 you prolly' need to sit back
 Who I used to be, carefree, man I miss that
 Shoutout to my past, current me here's a diss track
 Fuck your stupid panic disorder you hypochondriac
 Life is too short to be missing out, I used to smoke and laugh
 After work sitting in my car 'til the sunlight
 Rolling up then hit the Xbox feeling alright
 Yeah, shoot for the stars, right?
 How can I reach 'em when gravity just hits me broadside?
 Fuck it, I'm diving into the summit
 Maybe I'll make it through and say "It wasn't so bad, was it?"
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 So I thought about a hook but I said fuck it, I'ma write it out
 Good job, good friends, tell me what's to cry about?
 Copenhagen on my mind I guess I'm 'bout to give in
 That shit been with me every single lyric that I've written
 I guess, it's a part of me
 Yes, it's a problem
 It's a battle with some demons, man, I wonder how I got 'em
 I've been, at the bottom
 I've been, full throttle
 Need to slow it down a little bit
 Ferrari to Miata
 This, office that I'm sitting in, a home away from home
 No, I in team, but I would rather sit alone
 And daydream of what happens when you up and leave your castle
 To another country but I wonder, is it worth the hassle?
 It wasn't, maybe it was, yeah I don't know exactly
 I was searching for some artificial things to make me happy
 But I'm glad I did it
 I found peace for a minute
 I been feeling empty, yeah
 But fuck it I'ma keep living