Looking Back

I can't open my eyes today
 All the scars are fresh & the memory won't go away
 I can't quite manage a civil tongue in my head
 I guess I best stay in bed anyway
 It's not like you're even around
 It's not like we even share the same coast now
 It's not like I've really got reason to bring it up now
 But you do stick in my head anyway
 I don't recall just when you gave up
 But I know when I threw in the towel
 And I don't know when you finally gave in
 But I remember I was fucking tired
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 I always knew I was second place
 A forlorn example of all you'd escaped from
 You always knew you had a place you could cum
 And I let you use up my time anyway
 Well I wonder do you even remember
 Cause it all seems so far away
 Swing sets & heart strings & words that were meaningless
 I bet you'd say we were just kids anyway
 I don't recall just when you gave up
 But I know when I threw in the towel
 And I don't know when you finally gave in
 But I remember I was fucking tired
 I don't care who he was
 No I don't even care who he is
 I do hope he treats you
 As good as I should have
 And I hope that he never gets tired
 Yeah, I hope that he never gets tired
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 Well I can't open my eyes today
 My Life is pretty good but I can't face it anyway
 I wish I could call you & tell you the news
 But you wouldn't remember me anyway