Cutter

I don't know what to say to you
 I shouldn't judge, but I often do
 When you gonna come back home
 Why'd you leave me all alone
 I cut myself sharp and deep
 It's the only thing that lets me sleep
 Takes the pain from off my face
 And puts it in one tiny space
 Where I can keep it down out of sight
 Way off to the side
 It won't come at me on a cold dark night
 The red ridges I can't hide
 They're on the outside
 I don't know what to say to you
 I'm pretty sure, you wouldn't want me to
 Despite conviction, I still lack proof
 As the rain beats down on the motel roof
 And I miss those long hot summer days
 When I could keep that beast at bay
 Long shadows bring it back to life
 Till it sees its reflection in a short sharp knife
 Then I can keep it down out of sight
 Way off to the side
 It won't come at me on a cold dark night
 The red ridges I can't hide
 They're on the outside
 I remember all my gifts
 In the early hours when the panic lifts
 Thoughts go racing round and round
 And only daylight slows 'em down
 I miss my dog from years ago
 Where he went, I still don't know
 Whiskey and coffee while I burn my toast
 And build a cage for all my ghosts
 So I can keep'em down out of sight
 Way off to the side
 They won't come at me on a cold dark night
 The red ridges I can't hide
 But they're on the outside
 I don't know what to say to you
 I shouldn't judge, but I often do