Reality

I have to leave you behind
 I know that sounds harsh
 But that's the reality
 I wish we had our old life
 But that shit's impossible
 That's just reality
 I should have told you the minute you came
 But you sounded distraught standing out in the rain
 And I wanted to let you in, swallow your pain
 Because that's what I always do
 But I made a pact with my moms
 Under no circumstance
 Should I hear out Natalie
 Unlike you I keep my word
 And promises I make become my reality
 You like to live your life blurring the lines
 Bending the rules to make yourself look better
 But all that I wanted was something concrete
 And to know for a fact you are real
 What I know is
 I still love you
 That's my reality
 You know
 I'd give anything to wake up with you next to me
 You and I spent two years of our lives lost in your lies
 Far from reality
 And it felt like a dream
 'Cause it was
 Why do I always give in?
 That is on me to change
 That's my reality
 I can't do this to myself again
 I deserve someone who accepts reality
 I can't imagine rebuilding my life with you
 Constantly on the edge of what I know is true
 And you would string me along like you always do
 Knowing I will never let go