The Party and the Dream

Trying to do what I love
 Trying to chase my dreams but my feet they giving up
 'Cause it seems I hit a ceiling and I'm feeling kinda stuck
 Trying to just stay positive but ain't positive its enough
 Because a bunch of things that just
 factor in, I'm not a factory so don't rush
 Me on these songs all along been no entourage on my bus
 Just been me, myself and I, pretty much only people I trust
 Survived a couple of pitfalls, couple people got pissed off
 And I bit my tongue and just kept quiet through the blatant disrespect
 I been down and out,
 I mean counted out, I mean basically left for dead
 Ain't no round about go head count it
 out I mean bitch go and place your bets
 Oh you "bout it bout it" then bowing
 out cause I'm bound to get what's next
 But then my happiness has been drained; emotionally I'm in debt
 I'm just trying to stay focused, that's easier said
 Every turn has a turncoat business has cache
 And ya I know I forgave some people but never did I forget
 Yup
 It's the party and the dream
 And the boy who rides in between
 I'm only getting bigger, I'm Only
 It's The Party and the dream
 And the boy who rides in between
 I'm only getting better
 I'm only getting
 And then a couple things ain't pan out, did my best to branch out
 Seems I had some luck before but I think that bitch just ran out
 You only want what's best well, best you better stand out
 And then every person I meet now and it seems they got they hand out
 And I went so long with out writing; I almost threw the towel in
 I'm at a loss for words, somebody throw a vowel in
 I'm only human, takes a lot of talent
 Between the party and the dream, and I'm searching for that balance
 So fuck them to infinity cause this industry almost finished me
 All this negative energy you ain't been through this no empathy
 These opinions ain't offending me, critics ain't no friends to me
 What's the worst that you can do? I'm already my own worst enemy
 They love it when you on top, ride coattails when you pop
 And pray to God you don't flop, cause so called friends will walk
 My flows on fire, been through hell
 Opened fire you can see the shells
 Tried to assassinate my character but then they failed
 Oh well
 It's the party and the dream
 And the boy who rides in between
 I'm only getting bigger, I'm only
 It's The party and the dream
 And the boy who rides in between
 I'm only getting better
 I'm only getting