Fading Lately

I've been finding reasons
 To tell myself that I'm not really here or there much
 I've been making scrapbooks
 Of all the places I would like to go when I'm home
 And I've got ways to disappear
 And now I can't find my way out of here
 Am I really here?
 I don't know where I've been lately
 All I see is myself fading
 I don't know who I've been lately
 All I see is this place fading
 I've been playing dress up
 Trying to find a sweater that makes sense, given the climate
 I've been wearing glasses
 To let myself see the blurry mess, that I've yet to relate with
 And I've got ways to disappear
 And now I can't find my way out of here
 Am I really here?
 I don't know where I've been lately
 All I see is myself fading
 I don't know who I've been lately
 All I see is this place fading
 I just need to watch some TV
 To get a better sense of what I shouldn't be
 I didn't use breadcrumbs and now I'm stuck in this place
 I left my compass at home and now I can't find my way
 I just didn't, I just need, and now I can't find my way
 I don't know where I've been lately
 Everything has changed vaguely
 I don't know who I've been lately
 All I see is this place fading
 I don't know where I've been lately
 All I see is myself fading