Disappear

So sad that we have lost all our innocence
 Something that was pure is now covered in red
 Tainted by the role to become a woman
 I thought that it'll cure
 So why am I still walking... towards you?
 Right, left, my feet are [?]
 But how can I change direction
 When you smile at me, I'm infected
 Now should we lie to keep each other here
 Or tell the truth and burn
 Are you the man I thought you were
 Or is there more to learn
 And this would be unfair to tell you that
 The whole of me is here
 'Cause I woke up one day to find that I have disappeared
 I have disappeared
 I have disappeared
 I have disappeared
 The way that we would die
 I look into your eye
 I wouldn't get a dime
 Now I don't see the fire
 Tainted by the role to become the man
 You let me where you can
 Like you didn't give a damn
 It's mad
 How something so real
 Could be so conditional
 But how can I change direction
 When you smile at me, I'm infected
 Now should we lie to keep each other here
 Or tell the truth and burn
 Am I the girl you thought I was
 Or is there more to learn?
 And this would be unfair to tell you that
 The whole of me is here
 I woke up one day to find that I have disappeared
 I have disappeared
 I have disappeared
 I have disappeared
 Now today we have [?] turned out just fine
 But I'm scared about tomorrow
 Where I must store in my sorrow
 If it's not here to taste the pride
 To live, to feel
 Is it real?
 Is it real?
 I woke up one day to find that I was gone
 Where is the fun?
 Where did our hearts go?
 I can't find you, no