My First Body

I was always told to
 Not avenge myself and leave it to the good wrath of the lord you know but
 When it comes to my anger and dealing with things I've dealt with
 In this world, I feel like vengeance needs to be mine
 You feel me?
 When I think about it homie, I don't think I was ever cool with him
 From the sandbox, knew his mom and pops and I even went to school with him
 We were forced to be friends man, of course it would end
 Same song and in tune with 'em
 Was a sad casualty, like some dead batteries
 Nothing I could do with 'em
 Everything he did I got in trouble for
 Pulling me into it like it's tug of war
 Fuck it, I'm trippin' and now I want a war
 I'm about to jump without a bungee cord
 This shit isn't meant, in fact I won award
 Creator kept sendin' me to a dummy door
 Made it my enemy now my brother yours
 Sick with the wizardry, who was Dumbledore
 Fathom the fate, it'll leave your stomach sore
 Hungry for murder, give me a number four
 Did it in vain, there's an IV stuck in yours
 Hack 'em up like I'm gettin' data stuck in the motherboard
 'Cause either I'm corrupted or had trouble shooting 'em
 But of course made 'em sleep, death, to cord
 To where the court was unimportant
 This is my life but it's you they highlight, what this for?
 But the ball is in my fucking court
 I'm in all black, pick your fate like a motherfucking judge in court
 Get it by my lonely, child with support
 Hold on let me shut the door, I caught 'em in the bathroom
 Blood and gore, I'm about to drug 'em more
 Drug 'em towards the abandoned church, blood I had to
 His last words were, "I love you" said, "I love you more"
 Then I watched him die from the overdose, sad news
 Tarell won't be coming home tonight, I didn't condone his life
 Be blessed, get at you
 'Cause I really live this life, this ain't no hobby (this ain't no hobby)
 This sound like mental wards, I'm in the lobby (I'm in the lobby)
 I'm fucked up, watch my drink for me, you got me?
 While I tell 'em 'bout how I caught my first body (my first body)
 I really live this life, this ain't no hobby
 This sound like mental wards, I'm in the lobby
 I'm fucked up, watch my drink for me, you got me?
 While I tell 'em 'bout how I caught my first body
 If you a friend, it's time to say toodle-oo
 'Cause ain't no possible way he can ever be true to you
 Careful your appointment could do the due
 If he wants to kill his self
 What the fuck you think he wanna do to you
 My first body
 I remember that reincarnated killers back
 I just popped like 16 bars and told myself that issa wrap
 Sara gone, I told Kiana on the phone, I'm finna pass
 Woke up by my nigga Matthews
 Mom, step pops was chilling back
 Put me in the whip and dashin' frantic
 Hope this nigga crash
 Got me to the 'spital and they said I'd be admitted fast
 Back at school them niggas laughed
 My spit is black off ipecac
 Before Kathartic vids I really was forced to take Citrahtak
 Diagnosed with this and that, I'm popping pills like tic and tacs
 Mercy lasting, hope a man, yo Douglas where I'm living at
 Exposed to sex so young, the only way I cope is when I swack
 Molested, now I check in mental wards like where the bitches at?
 I am so Brainsick in fact, where the fuck is Twisted at?
 Fuck a beef, I love you G, I hope I get my nigga back
 Fuck this music shit, I really live what I put in my raps
 Went to war with Iso and I'm not sure if I killed his ass
 Because I really live this life, this ain't no hobby (this ain't no hobby)
 This sound like mental wards, I'm in the lobby (I'm in the lobby)
 I'm fucked up, watch my drink for me, you got me?
 While I tell 'em 'bout how I caught my first body
 I really live this life, this ain't no hobby
 This sound like mental wards, I'm in the lobby
 I'm fucked up, watch my drink for me, you got me?
 While I tell 'em 'bout how I caught my first body
 If you a friend, it's time to say toodle-oo
 'Cause ain't no possible way he can ever be true to you
 Careful your appointment could do the due
 If he wants to kill his self
 What the fuck you think he wanna do to you
 My first body
 I overcame my fear along time ago
 Death don't scare me
 I been there, done that
 But I'm back
 World War Me