Negative Sides of Optimistic Eyes

Trying not to hold my breath
 But my lungs are filled inside this chest
 I've been helpless and I couldn't have cared less
 Of anything that could or has been said
 In the future past and present tense
 Been my own best friend
 With clouds over my head
 Been on this sinking ship
 Decided that it's sink or swim
 The waters coming in
 Foundations wearing thin
 Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be missed
 If I swim with the ship again
 Trying not to hold my breath
 But my lungs are filled inside this chest
 I've been helpless and I couldn't have cared less
 Of anything that could or has been said
 What those words mean or just what they meant
 In the future past and present tense
 Been my own best friend
 With clouds over my head
 Been on this sinking ship
 Decided that it's sink or swim
 The waters coming in
 Foundations wearing thin
 Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be missed
 If I swim with the ship
 Giving up inch by inch
 In twenty words or less
 I'll describe this mess
 I've drank to forget,
 Full of hopelessness
 Never cared what they said
 And I'm on this edge in crisis
 And I couldn't care less
 Been my own best friend
 With clouds over my head
 Been on this sinking ship
 Decided that it's sink or swim
 The waters coming in
 Foundations wearing thin
 Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be missed again
 Been my own best friend
 With clouds over my head
 Been on this sinking ship
 Decided that it's sink or swim
 The waters coming in
 Foundations wearing thin
 Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever be missed
 If I could swim with the ship
 Giving up inch by inch
 And I've lost my own best friend