not ok but its ok

I found peace and comfort
 In sharing our existence
 I found satisfaction
 Just knowing you were listening
 I found something special
 I tried to make it last
 Yet my head hurt me
 It pushed into the past
 I tried to plead my sorry
 But I can not express
 The way this got me feeling
 I had to just digress
 I don't wanna be here no more
 I'm trapped in my head
 I'm trapped in my thoughts
 I just wanna be free
 I won't have to run away
 I won't have to see your face
 I won't have to lead astray
 I won't have to find my place
 I won't have to feel your skin
 I won't have a life to live
 I won't have to be afraid
 I don't need to be okay
 Everything seems to go fast
 Yet here I am still in the past
 Trying to find just something more
 Than what I had with you before