White Knuckles

His incredible vision, already a trillion times sharper than that of any ordinary being. Super beast gazes farther out into the universe than any human has ever dared or even tried to see
 They love me when I'm crazy, love to feel my pain
 So they sit alone and know they're not the only ones insane
 I'm perfect, a mentally blurred, disturbed serpent
 Emerging of murderous words that serve purpose
 From fresh air, walking the dogs with birds chirping
 To death stares, talking to God, it's not working
 It's not fair, have to give it time, be patient
 I'm just a spec of sand compared to all creation
 From bleach blonde addict to creature of habit
 Thinking in my dreams, it's time to reach out and grab it
 Down to the furniture, each detail imagined
 Loft in Vancouver, Venice beach house, and cabin
 In the middle of the forest with a creek, that's serenity
 Can't wait until the day I go to sleep with no enemies
 Walk around the city knowing I could be killed
 From an old beef, a sociopathic's cheap thrills
 Yeah I'll make a little money with awfully steep bills
 And some awful big debts, it's an awfully steep hill
 But I'm a keep on climbing while I grind and I hustle
 Fist clenched, white knuckles till my knees fuckin buckle
 Addictive personality, destructive, give me more pain
 Laughing while destroying, I'm the Joker wearing war paint
 With a scorpion on my thumb
 I just want to get some head, taking opiates till I'm numb
 Feeling so alone, watch this orphan come undone
 To a shape shifting ape lifting weights, having fun
 Acid spewing speed demon, feeding on the weak
 I get paid for words, literally eat from what I speak
 They talk a lot of shit without even one try
 While I'm delivering the sun till the rivers run dry
 New found strength, so I might go forth
 BAX WAR, that's disciples of a psycho dwarf
 They say I could be bigger if I just conform
 But I don't wanna be in clubs, I detest the norm
 I'm a monster that's heartless, creator of darkness
 Eccentric collector with a shrine for an apartment
 Writing rhymes on my Noguchi coffee table, burning incenses
 They say that I'm insensitive, at least I'm intent
 Harboring my agony and pain, let it unleash
 Then breathe fire, pounding on my chest like I'm a dumb beast
 Dapper demigod, snob, I'm a label whore
 Sentences is full of savagery, it's a crazy war
 Going on inside my fuckin head, no rest for the wicked
 Dog, I just want to kick it
 But these twisted rhymes are racing
 Will it? Won't stop spinning
 Might be mental demented but I'm bent on winning
 Clarifying that I'm verifying that I'm a terrifying scary giant
 Every line I spit's an arrow flying