Skintercourse

i fell in love with the feeling of being in love
 i should have known it wouldn't last
 but i had the traits
 and the confident face of a man
 and i'll evolve if i can't adapt
 so i fell in love with the feeling of my own hands
 stretching back
 letting go
 i shed the skin that i slithered in for so long
 i rubbed my stomach raw
 i can't identify the source of my
 overarching need to pry under your skin
 i guess it started all the way back when
 you and i used to pretend we were just friends
 now i'm overlooked and undertouched
 i overcompensated for such
 and i can't get back to where i once was
 i wish i'd been the one to come undone
 to have and hold this magic wand over your head
 i can't identify the source of this
 overarching need to twist the knife in your skin
 i guess it started once i realized
 this life i once idealized is all gone to shit
 now i'm underdressed and overtouched
 i didn't think that i'd like it so much
 and i won't go back to where i once was
 thank god i was the one to come undone
 now i can hold this smoking gun over your head