Terrible October

Lonely have I been, for so long, so long
 And though I try to stay strong
 In times of pain and oppression
 I've tried to count my blessings
 But the deeper I get, the deeper I let
 This shit get to me, the pain it gets the best of me
 And the only way out, the only way out
 Is when I close my eyes and shout
 a-whoaooooohooohoooh whaoooaawhoa a-whoa
 a-whoaooooohooohoooh whaoooaawhoa a-whoa
 Lonely have I been, for so long, so long
 Some things I'd done were so wrong
 I gave up the love that meant the most to me
 I'm guilty, the thought alone it kills me
 Well I've heard you found the love you were looking for
 That makes one of us, that makes one of us
 And it seems you've lost the love that came before
 That makes one of us, that makes one of us
 a-whoaooooohooohoooh whaoooaawhoa
 nah nah nah nah
 nah nah nah nah
 Well happiness you left me long ago whoa
 Try my best not to let it show whoa-e-whoa
 Will someone tell me when my day will come
 And when I'm low, will let me know I'm not the only one
 Well each and every one of my dreams have turned to nightmares
 In town, well even the hills ain't fair
 And you wont catch me ever jumping out of windows
 Shit can hit the fan, and that's just the way the wind blows
 What more can I say, it's just another terrible day in October