How Could You Leave Us

How could you leave us so unexpected?
 We waited, we waited
 For you but you just left us
 We needed you, I needed you
 Yo, I don't know what it's like to be addicted to pills
 But I do know what it's like to be a witness, it kills
 Mama told me she love me, I'm thinking this isn't real
 I think of you when I get a whiff of that cigarette smell, yeah
 Welcome to the bottom of hell
 They say pain is a prison, let me out of my cell
 You say you proud of me, but you don't know me that well
 Sit in my room, tears running down my face and I yell
 Into my pillowcases, say you coming to get us
 Then call a minute later just to tell us you not, I'm humiliated
 I'm in a room with a parent that I barely know
 Some lady in the corner watching us, while she taking notes
 I don't get it mom, don't you want to watch your babies grow?
 I guess pills are more important, all you have to say is "no"
 But you won't do it, will you? You gon' keep popping 'til those pills kill you
 I know you gone but I can still feel you
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 Why would you leave us?
 Why would you leave us?
 How could you leave us here?
 How could you leave us?
 Why would you leave us? Oh
 Hey
 I got this picture in my room and it kills me
 But I don't need a picture of my mom, I need the real thing
 Now a relationship is something we won't ever have
 Why do I feel like I lost something that I never had?
 You shoulda been there when I graduated
 Told me you love me and congratulations
 Instead you left us at the window waiting
 Where you at mom? We're too young to understand, where you at huh?
 Yeah, I know them drugs got you held captive
 I can see it in your eyes, they got your mind captured
 Some say it's fun to get the high but I am not laughing
 And what you don't realise and what you not grasping
 That I was nothing but a kid who couldn't understand
 I ain't gon' say that I forgive you 'cause it hasn't happened
 I thought that maybe I feel better as time passes
 If you really cared for me, then where you at then?
 Why would you leave us?
 Why would you leave us?
 How could you leave us here?
 
 How would you leave us?
 Why would you leave us? Oh
 Hey
 Our last conversation, you and I sat in the living room
 Talking 'bout my music and I brought you something to listen to
 You started crying, telling me this isn't you
 A couple weeks later, guess you were singing a different tune
 You took them pills for the last time, didn't you?
 They took you from us once, guess they came back to finish you
 Crying my eyes out in the studio is difficult
 Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you
 It took me everything inside of me to not scream at your funeral
 Sitting in my chair, that person talking was pitiful
 I wish you were here mama but every time I picture you
 All I feel is pain, I hate the way I remember you
 They found you on the floor, I could tell that you felt hollow
 Gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles
 You gave everything you had plus your life to them pill bottles
 Don't know if you hear me or not, but if you still watching, why?
 Why would you leave us?
 Why would you leave us?
 How could you leave us here?
 How would you leave us?
 Why would you leave us? Oh
 Hey
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 Sometimes I think about like
 Sometimes I think about things like, you know
 When I have kids, I'm like
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 You won't be there, you know?
 You won't be there for any of that
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 And I'll never get to see you again
 Sometimes I wish I would've just called you
 I wish I would've just picked up the phone, wish you were here
 I mean you should've been there for us, you should have been here
 Them pills got you, right?
 Them pills got you, right?
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 I wish you were here