ruiner

It's the young Edgar Allan spitting live from the basement
 Do it for the love, give a fuck about the payment
 If I'm being honest, I don't know what I'm chasing
 Need a space to place my thoughts and the songs, the location
 I'm fucking sick of writing all these sad songs
 But I'm just being real, it's how I feel, word is bond
 I just wanna let you know you're not alone
 That I know what it's like when you never leave your home
 When you can't get out of bed, can't even check your phone
 Can't even lift your head, like your bones are made of stone
 When everyone you know is asking why you're feeling low
 But you can't tell 'em why, 'cause you don't even know
 I got radio execs tryna say what's best
 I got pressure coming down, got me overly stressed
 I got suicidal thoughts floating through my head
 I got people from the past probably hoping I'm dead
 Oh no, what's your mama gonna say
 When I tell her that I broke your heart?
 It's just things aren't the way that they used to be
 Oh no, now you're crying on the bathroom floor
 And I guess it's the end
 Well, I lost my mind, then I lost my best friend
 Yeah, so what if I did and what if I didn't?
 I just wish I wasn't stuck between decisions
 I just wish I didn't feel like something's missing
 I just need to get outside this mental prison
 3am and I'm stuck in a rut
 Seems like every time I leave I end up thinking of us
 I keep fucking with your head like a lobotomy
 I lost it all and you'll always be a part of me
 And can you feel the pain when you wake up?
 Late again and it's dark out
 I don't even know where it came from
 Can't escape, got me feeling down
 I remember days in the hometown
 Things change when you come around
 Now they're just memories now
 Keep feeling up, then I'm feeling down
 Oh no, what's your mama gonna say
 When I tell her that I broke your heart?
 It's just things aren't the way that they used to be
 Oh no, now you're crying on the bathroom floor
 And I guess it's the end
 Well, I lost my mind, then I lost my best friend
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 I lost my best friend
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 I lost my best friend
 I lost my best friend
 I lost my best friend