With or Without

It feels like I was better once
 I just can't remember
 The things I did differently
 At my center
 Somewhere between then and now
 I lost my temper
 Been looking for a way to get it back
 I barely keep it quiet
 The sound of hope divided
 With a broken wrist from shaking my fist at things
 That I don't understand, and can't change even if I did
 I want to turn the worry down
 So I can feel the day breathe
 Because sleeping through anxiety
 Never really worked for me
 I can't put up so I put it off
 But the bell's still ringing
 When I wake up with a doubtful mouth
 I barely keep it quiet
 The sound of hope divided
 With a broken wrist from shaking my fist at things
 That I don't understand, and can't change even if I did
 You can only say your hands are tied
 (Living like your life's a losing fight)
 When your eyes aren't wide
 (Keeping all your demons out of sight)
 If you really want it to be alright
 (There's a consequence to giving up)
 You'll have to find the time
 (You'll end up begging for forgiveness from)
 You can only say your hands are tied
 (The weight of all that you can't overcome)
 When your eyes aren't wide
 (If there's any other way to be then show me)
 If you really want it to be alright
 (When you start to feel the levy strain)
 You have to find the time
 (To look up and breathe through the rain)
 A thief or an entertainer
 A failure or the piece of paper
 A messianic public figure or a celebrity with disciples
 A slave to the anger in your nature or just kindness you don't have time for
 A father or a fiction
 A fist or an invocation
 A senator with the powerful implication, or a civilian who dies patient
 An assumption or an honest conversation
 Fear breeds in the pause can't you feel it?
 A revolution's eldest daughter or a pink stereotype men bought her
 A well of useful information or water damage on a moral foundation
 A king or a contradiction
 Strength or self-preservation
 The consequence of motion
 I see through a hole in my heart now that you're gone
 I waste my time on these moral rivalries
 Instead of embracing that no one knows anything
 And life still goes on with or without
 (And we must be brave, with or without)