Sinner, Pt. 2

Yeah, I just can't take this pressure no more
 Why I feel like I've been in this place before
 I just can't take no more
 I just can't smile like I'm still me, I just can't fake no more
 I try to be all I can but that wasn't enough for them
 We can't find love so we replace it with these drugs again
 I drink from this bottle dog it's my only friend
 I'm so scared to be alone again
 Fake smile on my face
 I just can't keep pretending like I don't pretend
 And my little homie's doing 25
 If God exists why he never try
 To show us that this life is more than pain
 'Cause is hard to live when you're dead inside
 And they say I'm worthless 'cause I ain't a Christian
 Like turn a church into a fucking business
 They killed Jehovah, didn't leave a witness
 And these preachers crooked as these politicians
 Politics, religion, I don't see the difference
 They crucify me 'cause I'm speaking different
 Who the fuck are they to judge?
 Tell me who are you to criticize the way I'm living?
 40 ounces for the pain
 I ain't been the same since I've seen my pops cry
 I might be light skin to you
 But I'm still a nigga in the cops eyes
 They ain't stopping 'til we all die
 Mama I just hope you understand
 I just couldn't take the pressure mama
 See I tried my best to be a better man
 And you might know my story dawg
 But you won't ever know my pain
 And she was all I needed
 Now this bottle is my Novocaine
 Trying not to go insane now
 Trying not to go insane now
 Trying not to go insane
 They say lately I ain't been the same
 Yeah
 But they won't ever know my pain
 And I know lately I ain't been the same
 I just never really show my pain, my pain
 Yeah, man I can't feel nothing no more
 Fake love don't cut it no more
 Homie, I've been drinking so much
 Nothing staying in my stomach no more
 I can't even feel the pain inside
 I can't keep living in a lie
 Yeah, I might be breathing just like everybody else
 But I still don't feel alive
 Every night man, I hear a pistol poppin'
 Make me feel like God ain't really watching
 Watch out for the snakes, they steady plottin'
 They wanna put you in a cage or in a coffin
 Nowadays, these cops just wanna kill
 No love in the streets, don't wanna feel
 What I felt when I heard my lil' brother passed
 I'll never get him back
 But yo I still, know his soul is still roamin' on the streets
 Now I just hope he's watching over me
 Now I just keep on praying
 I've been tryna talk to God but these demons never leave
 I know I lost myself along the way
 I was just too scared to fade away
 Now they all keep begging me to stay
 But I can't be here another day
 So I drink from this bottle 'til I feel numb again
 I've been tempted by these drugs again
 I know I ain't been the same
 Momma told me she just wanna see her son again
 I just wanna see her smile again
 I don't ever wanna see her cry
 So I lie and say that I'm okay
 But, I've been plottin' on my suicide
 And you might know my story dawg
 But you won't ever know my pain
 And she was all I needed
 Now this bottle is my Novocaine
 Trying not to go insane now
 Trying not to go insane now
 Trying not to go insane
 They say lately I ain't been the same
 Yeah
 But they won't ever know my pain
 And I know lately I ain't been the same
 But I just never really show my pain, my pain
 I just don't show my pain