That’s Just the Way That I Feel

Well, I don't like talkin' to myself
 But someone's gotta say it, hell
 I mean, things have not been going well
 This time I think I finally fucked myself
 You see, the life I live is sickening
 I spent a decade playing chicken with oblivion
 Day to day, I'm neck and neck with giving in
 I'm the same old wreck I've always been
 And when I see her in the park
 It barely merits a remark
 How we stand the standard distance
 Distant strangers stand apart
 Course I've been humbled by the void
 Much of my faith has been destroyed
 I've been forced to watch my foes enjoy
 Ceaseless feasts of schadenfreude
 And as the pace of life keeps quickening
 Beneath the bitching and the bickering
 When I try to drown my thoughts in gin
 I find my worst ideas know how to swim
 Well, a setback can be a setup
 For a comeback if you don't let up
 But this kind of hurtin' won't heal
 And the end of all wanting
 Is all I've been wanting
 And that's just the way that I feel
 I met failure in Australia
 I fell ill in Illinois
 I nearly lost my genitalia
 To an anthill in Des Moines
 I was so far gone in Fargo
 South Dakota got annoyed
 That's the shit I'm talkin' 'bout
 When I talk to you about
 Ceaseless feasts of schadenfreude
 And a setback can be a setup
 For a comeback if you don't let up
 But this kind of hurtin' won't heal
 And the end of all wanting
 Is all I've been wanting
 The end of all wanting
 Is all I've been wanting
 The end of all wanting
 Is all I've been wanting
 And that's just the way that I feel