When I Go Down

I'll tell you flat out
 it hurts so much
 to think of this
 so from my thoughts
 i will exclude
 the very thing that
 i hate more than
 everything is
 the way I'm powerless
 to dictate my own moods
 I've thrown away
 so many things
 that could've been much more
 and i just pray
 my problems go away
 if they're ignored
 but that's not the way it works
 no that's not the way it works
 when i go down
 i go down hard
 and i take everything i've learned
 and teach myself some disregard
 when i go down
 it hurts to hit the bottom
 and of the things that got me there
 i think, if only i had fought them
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 if and when i can
 clear myself of this clouded mind
 I'll watch myself settle down
 into a place where peace
 can search me out and find
 that I'm so ready to be found
 I've thrown away
 the hope i had in friendships
 I've thrown away
 so many things that could
 have been much more
 I've thrown away
 the secret to find an end to this
 and i just pray
 my problems go away
 if they're ignored
 but that's not the way it works
 no that's not the way it works
 when i go down
 i go down hard
 and i take everything i've learned
 and teach myself some disregard
 when i go down
 it hurts to hit the bottom
 and of the things that got me there
 i think, if only i had fought them
 any control I thought i had
 just slips right through my hands
 while my ever-present conscience
 shakes it's head and reprimands me
 reprimands me
 then and there
 I confess
 I'll blame all this on my selfishness
 yet you love me
 and that consumes me
 and I'll stand up again
 and do so willingly
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 You give me hope,
 and hope it gives me life
 You touch my heavy heart,
 and when you do you make it light
 As I exhale
 I hear your voice
 And I answer you,
 though I hardly make a noise
 And from my lips
 the words I choose to say
 Seem pathetic,
 but it's a fallen man's praise
 Because I love you
 Oh God, I love you
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 And life is now worth living
 If only because of you
 And when they say that I am dead and gone
 It won't be further from the truth
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 When I go Down
 I lift my eyes to you
 I won't look very far
 'Cause you'll be there
 With open arms
 
 To lift me up again
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 To lift me up again