Let's Blow Up the Sun

I've been cruel and unkind and on purpose
 Remorseful and insincere
 Longing for the luxury of boredom
 Weeping for the loss of control
 Sitting with the sly sloganeering
 Saving you a seat
 When I met you, I felt on time
 I felt organized
 That year it stayed so warm I thought I'd never see snow
 With a sharp click we're fluorescent
 Walk twelve miles and then wake up
 Work twelve hours and then wake up
 Some days I don't make it
 That year it stayed so cold
 I thought I'd never see spring
 Then it stayed so warm
 I thought I'd never see snow
 You can hear it next door
 That low, lone rumble
 You can hear it next door
 Someone's laughing
 Maybe crying
 Maybe both
 Constant reminder on all sides
 These walls are not mine
 Skin is cold sand
 Breath is turpentine
 That year it stayed so loud
 Thought I'd never be found
 I don't mind a little repetition
 I don't mind the settling in
 The creaking clanging steel of my friends
 Shouting on the inside
 Even-keeled forever