Scars

Yo
 I'm pushing you away
 'Cause every time we talk, it hurts
 Help me cure out my depression
 It gave me a sense of worth
 It's like you helped me out the mud
 And then shoved me in the dirt
 Now I'm stuck feeling like I'm the only person on the Earth
 You were like my world
 And I watched it fall apart
 Now I'm drifting through the cosmos
 And circling the stars
 Help me put the blade down
 And close up all the scars
 But now my biggest scar
 Is the one up on my heart
 If it took my life to be with you
 Then I would gladly give it
 Depression's an infection
 And you're the cure for the sickness
 Lately, I been trippin', and honestly I don't get it
 It was only three months, but it felt like a minute
 I'm stupid and annoying
 But that's only 'cause I care
 And any time you need me, girl you know that I'll be there
 Most nights, I'm staring down a barrel
 It's too much to bear
 I'm afraid to let you go
 I'll admit I'm fucking scared
 And I hate being sober 'cause then I can feel the pain
 So I tell myself to numb it and then grab the fucking blade
 Watching as the droplets roll down my wrist like its rain
 And I don't wanna leave
 But you know that I can't stay