Upgrader(Ed)

I know who I am
 Crawling on my hands
 Thoughts burrowed in my mind
 They were never mine
 Whole days disappear
 Nerves shot, turned in by fear
 It isn't if but always when
 That I'll be back again
 Hold on for control
 One piece not quite whole
 Shattered memories come to light
 Slowly losing sight
 Whole days disappear
 Nerves shot, turned in by fear
 It isn't if but always when
 That I'll be back again
 I don't
 I don't wanna know
 I need me
 I don't
 I don't wanna go
 I need to be free
 Strong lies held inside
 Tall tales be my guide
 Drag me through and make me see
 Force me to believe
 Whole days disappear
 Nerves shot, turned in by fear
 It isn't if but always when
 That I'll be back again