Heavier

No doubt I've done this to myself
 The more you know, the more you know
 When I just can't quit it if you couldn't tell
 I've seen it all, I've seen it all
 And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
 While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest
 Am I a fake? Am I a fraud?
 And is it worth losing you for?
 Another pain I can't ignore
 Another morning on the floor
 I take the blame, I wanna change
 But I can't settle the score
 Now I'm a slave to better days
 And I'm not willing anymore
 I had a dream that I was drowning everyone I've ever loved
 I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul
 I'm feeling anxious now, it's swallowing me whole
 And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
 While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest
 Cold water running down my face
 Just let it go, just let it go
 But there is no mending what I can't replace
 I should've known, I should've known
 Am I a fake? Am I a fraud?
 And am I worth losing you for?
 Now I'm gutted to the core
 Like I've never been before
 I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul
 I'm feeling anxious now, it's swallowing me whole
 And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
 While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest
 Now it's sinking in
 Thick skin is wearing thin
 Out of my mind
 And it won't come as any surprise
 And I've paid for it this time
 I'm feeling heavier despite my hollow soul
 I'm feeling anxious now, it's swallowing me whole
 And at night I beg myself to put this all to rest
 While I wrestle with these demons pressing on my chest
 I'm feeling, I'm feeling
 I'm feeling heavier
 I'm feeling, I'm feeling
 I'm feeling heavier