Numb

Is this what I deserve?
 What about everything I could have done?
 I'm looking at the wall
 With my numb eyes (with my numb eyes)
 Inside fear, inside pain
 Inside hate, how does it feel?
 It could be hell, but I know
 This is not heaven
 Am I become numb with grief?
 After all your lies and screams
 I am not feeling empty
 I just not feel
 My emotions have been thrown away
 Don't be afraid is what they fucking said
 I am so close to tear
 But not so close to cry (but not so close to cry)
 Inside fear, inside pain
 Inside hate, how does it feel?
 It could be hell, but I know
 This is not heaven
 Wish to suffer is not a good thing
 But to feel is kinda want to
 I want to escape from this hole
 But I'm stuck inside
 Inside fear, inside pain
 Inside hate, how does it feel?
 It could be hell, but I know
 This is not heaven