Disappeared

I took some time to myself
 To sort out all the things
 That make me feel the way that I feel
 Just this year I lost a basketball team to heaven
 And I'm sure they're shooting jumpers
 With Jesus, Mary, and Joseph
 And you said we wouldn't notice it
 If you had disappeared
 But I swore I got a phone call
 So that seemed pretty weird
 So caught up in my own head
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 I took a walk down my street
 Thought I'd find something to eat
 But I headed back immediately'
 Cause I'm pretty scared of guns
 So go out and have some fun, let loose
 And I'll daydream of the noose that took my friend Sean's life
 And you thought we wouldn't notice it
 If he had disappeared
 But I swore I got a phone call
 So that seemed pretty weird
 So caught up in my own head
 I let my hair down today
 And I took a shower for the first time in what felt like weeks
 I felt my hair falling out
 And I felt myself falling down
 But that can't seem to be the reason
 I can't sleep when I'm alone
 It's getting better
 And it's hardly getting worse
 It's hard to think about the things that make it all hurt
 I found myself on the street
 You swore that you would love me
 And I swore I'd love you too
 And you'll barely even notice it when I disappear