Mononokay

What does it mean to be happy?
 And am I getting better?
 I used to make excuses for myself
 But it's not the weather
 I've tried to rid myself
 Of my anxious tendencies
 But I have to accept my head for what it is to me
 I'm not superhuman
 Well, I'm barely alive
 But I would kill to leave my house
 To not be afraid of the outside
 So, I started thinking
 It'd be so nice
 To not have trouble sleeping
 I haven't slept in nights
 So, I called to apologize
 For every night
 I told you, "I didn't want to live my life"
 But I hung up
 'Fore you picked up
 'Cause I changed my mind
 You know more about plants
 Than I know about myself
 And if giving up doesn't make you stronger
 Then, why the hell am I still here?
 Call me depressed
 And tell me to get over it
 It's not in my head
 And it's in my blood
 So, I called to apologize
 For every night
 I told you, "I didn't want to live my life"
 But I hung up
 Before you could pick up
 'Cause I changed my mind
 And I've gotten better
 At getting better
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 And I've gotten better
 At getting better
 At being me
 I've gotten better
 At getting better
 And I've gotten better
 At being me
 And I've gotten better
 At getting better
 And I've gotten better
 At being me
 At being me