Optimism (As a Radical Life Choice)

The pain is back in my chest again
 Holding me down like a high school friend
 Says, "The worlds about to end
 You best start swimming"
 You said, "Anxiety is the theme of all our lives these days"
 Can't even have my coffee without exploiting someone
 Or making another millionaire or billionaire
 What would it take to be happy?
 I'll probably start with the money
 It's the clear backpacks
 It's the two new fire exits
 I'm buying a beer
 Don't want to think of where I'm running
 If another asshole takes a shot
 It's the city burning down while I stare at a dirty pic you sent me
 And I'm hiding in the desert, but I taste the ocean in my snot
 Just trying to find my footing
 I know you're sick of walking
 Don't take me out back and shoot me
 I know my circuits are faulty
 Now I've only ever been a kid
 Pointing out dead dogs on the road
 Take me down in a landslide
 Help me weather this high tide
 I'll wear you out
 Waiting for me to implode
 But don't take me out back and shoot me
 But I'm done dying on the inside
 Now that everything is dying outside
 The sky is letting go
 Of holding on like a crying child
 Armageddon on my mind
 I'll try to smile all the time
 Like hell's a construct that I need
 To make amends or keep myself clean
 And yes, I'm aware it's fleeting
 Don't take me out back and shoot me
 I know my circuits are faulty
 Now I've only ever been a kid
 Pointing out dead dogs on the road
 Take me down in a landslide
 Help me weather this high tide
 I'll wear you out
 Waiting for me to implode
 Because the ocean's gonna rise
 The river's finally gonna overflow
 And leave us stranded
 Try to make it to the other side
 But there's a crack in my lifeboat
 And I'm sinking
 Well, I'm sinking, won't you sink with me?
 We're sinking!
 Take me out back and shoot me
 I know my circuits are faulty
 I've only ever been a kid
 Pointing out dead dogs on the road
 Take me down in a landslide
 Weather this high tide
 I'll wear you out waiting for me to implode
 Don't take me out back and shoot me
 I know my circuits are faulty
 And now I've only ever been a kid
 Pointing out dead dogs on the road
 Take me down in a landslide
 Help me weather this high tide
 I'll wear you out
 Watching the world implode
 But don't take me out back and shoot me