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This dimly lit confinement that I call my own apartment
 Has set me in a web of self pity and decay
 I seem to find myself just lying awake in bed until 2 PM on Saturdays just wasting myself away
 I'll never leave
 Tell me that I'm different. I know it doesn't make a difference that my differences differ, it's all the same anyways
 'Cause I try (yeah I try) and I'll try (yeah sure,"try") but in the end I'm still alone and just totally lame
 At least I tell myself that anyways
 I'm hard on myself and I can't seem to stray from the idea that I'm worthless and have nothing else to give
 I haven't slept a wink in what feels like days
 But I know I've only been awake since noon today
 And it's 4 PM
 God damn it
 Tell me that I'm different. I know it doesn't make a difference that my differences differ, it's all the same anyways
 'Cause I try (yeah I try) and I'll try (yeah sure,"try") but in the end I'm still alone and just totally lame
 Since you left I haven't felt the same
 The reason why I live, 3000 miles away
 It's just hard to sit around all day
 And not be reminded of all the things you'd say
 To make me laugh, to make my fears go away
 A condition that's position eats away at me everyday
 I just wish there could be another way for you to come home, back to me, back to the old days
 Since you left I haven't felt the same
 The reason why I live, 3000 miles away
 It's just hard to sit around all day
 And not be reminded of all the things you'd say
 To make me laugh, to make my fears go away
 A condition that's position eats away at me everyday
 I just wish there could be another way for you to come home, back to me, back to the old days
 These days that I just lay awake have taught me what you really mean
 I should be more independent but I find it hard to determine if it's even worth living my own days