Unbecoming

I lost myself into the night
 And I flew higher
 Than I had ever, but I still felt small
 I clipped my wings and fell from flight
 To open water
 And floated farther away from myself
 And I swam in the wakes of imposters
 Just to feel what it's like to pretend
 There's no dreams in the waves, only monsters
 And the monsters are my only friends
 They're all that I was
 And never could be
 Eyes in the dead still water
 Tried but it pushed back harder
 Cauterized and atrophied
 This is my unbecoming
 Knives in the backs of martyrs
 Lives in the burning fodder
 Cauterized and atrophied
 This is my unbecoming
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 You found me drifted out to sea
 It's automatic
 It's telepathic, you always knew me
 And you laugh as I search for a harbor
 As you point where your halo had been
 But the light in your eyes has been squandered
 There's no angel in you in the end
 And all that I was
 I've left behind me
 Eyes in the dead still water
 Tried but it pushed back harder
 Cauterized and atrophied
 This is my unbecoming
 Knives in the backs of martyrs
 Lives in the burning fodder
 Cauterized and atrophied
 This is my unbecoming
 Now I wait this metamorphosis
 All that is left is the change
 Selfish fate, I think you made me this
 Under the water I wait
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 Eyes in the dead still water
 Tried but it pushed back harder
 Cauterized and atrophied
 This is my unbecoming
 Knives in the backs of martyrs
 Lives in the burning fodder
 Cauterized and atrophied
 This is my unbecoming