Scum Grief

I try to please them with my way most every day
 i try to please you while i'm here wasting away
 i'll promise you a world so wide, love
 replace my lies in time with truth, love.
 Access to exits everywhere far and away
 blueprints of passageways lest i need an escape
 i need a way out of my life, love
 some hidden path we take in stride, love.
 I'm always full of "woe is me" and i'm ashamed
 don't want to spend my days as some hippocratic slave
 my field of vision's blurred and blind, love
 my drinks are always running dry, love.
 Cautious and apathetic, brutal and in blame
 my life a straw house in the wake of hurricanes
 pray you don't upset me or mine, love
 don't pity vague petty minds, love.
 Call me pathetic
 call me a bore
 you don't even take the time to call me anymore
 so tired and tragic
 squalid and vain
 sometimes i swear i don't even remember my name.