Isolate

So many wrong ways, so many scars
 So many empty days into this world of grey
 I clench my hands, standing on edge, now isolated
 With no redemption to be found
 I've wasted so many words
 I've grown into the realm of lies
 I have no purpose or glorious goals
 To lead my soul
 God, tell me why I have to face
 This state of slow disintegration
 So many gestures, so many nights
 Trying to fight my fears, to delay misery
 A very last time before I die
 I let it go away and I just give up once again
 All my expectations, all the lives I could have dreamt of
 All of this will turn to dust, scattered in a wind of pestilence
 A random shift in suffering scales, a vanishing grain of sand
 Into the sea of nothingness, I've lost all hope or faith
 I fall deep into oblivion, a wish to not share the pain
 I'm far beyond all denial and vain negation
 I desecrate the foundations of my own existence
 I'm lost into the purest darkness
 I suffocate under the weight of grief and deception
 I've wasted so many words
 I've grown into the realm of lies
 I have no purpose or glorious goals
 To lead my soul
 God, tell me why I have to face
 This state of slow disintegration
 Tell me why we all remain
 Engulfed into sheer emptiness
 I cannot see the light beyond